While you're certainly experiencing some very difficult circumstances at the moment, there's a cast-iron spiritual rule that God never sends a person a test they can't stand up in.
That doesn't mean that we like or enjoy the 'tests' we're sent, but once we know that they are part and parcel of life down here on the planet, and that our tests are meaningful and coming to achieve a particular spiritual aim, or fix a particular spiritual flaw, it makes it so much easier to weather them.
By contrast, when we believe our suffering is meaningless or a 'punishment', it makes it so much harder to cope with our circumstances, and we also lose hope and start despairing that it will ever turn around.
God can turn things around in a second
So let me say this: God can turn your situation around in the blink of an eye, and make it all turn out for the best. Don't give up hope!
The story of Rabbi Akiva
2,000 years' ago, there lived a poor, illiterate Jewish farm-hand called Akiva. Akiva couldn't read or write, but he had a brilliant mind and a heart of gold. His parents were poor outsiders, so Akiva grew up with no social advantages and very little money.
Rachel, the daughter of the wealthy landowner who was employing Akiva as a shepherd noticed he was something out of the ordinary, and struck a deal with him: she'd marry him, if he'd agree to go to school (at age 40…) to read and write, and to learn Torah.
He agreed, even though it meant he'd have to endure the humiliation of sitting with the 4 year olds to learn the alphabet, and they got married.
Rachel's dad was livid, and disinherited her on the spot. She went from living in the lap of luxury, to living in a barn and having no furniture and very little food.
But Rachel and Akiva persevered.
Despite all the hardships, mockery, poverty and set-backs, Akiva kept learning Torah for 24 years straight.
At the end of that time, he'd acquired a following of 24,000 students, a reputation as the leading Jewish Sage of Israel, and had so much money he could buy his wife, Rachel, some really expensive jewellery.
The above is a true story.
Things can turnaround at any age, and at any stage of life
I'm sharing it with you because it underlines that THINGS CAN TURNAROUND FOR THE BEST at any age. Rabbi Akiva went from being an illiterate impoverished farm-hand at age 40, to the leading sage of his generation 25 years' later.
Believe in yourself, believe in your ability to weather the difficult circumstances you find yourself in, and believe that God can and will turn it all around for the best.
Even in the midst of all the hardships and challenges, there is still so much good in life: children are blessings. Having a home is a blessing. Food on the table is a blessing. Having hot water in the shower and a flushing toilet are all blessings that NO-ONE had 200 years' ago.
Looking at the blessings in your life, and the tremendous good in yourself, will give you the strength you need to get through, and to find the hidden good that is definitely there, somewhere. Just don't despair, in the meantime. This too, will pass, and things will definitely start to look up, with God's help.